He called this past Saturday and wanted to know if he could visit. I was working but said he could come by in the late afternoon. It went well. Seeing him after 5 years was so nice. He's been off medications for awhile and was very emotional. At 21 he still reacts to things as a 13 year old would. He claims he'll be going back on his medications as soon as his insurance is effective at his new job. We'll see, being compliant with his medications was always a problem for him. He admitted he is drinking and using and needs to stop. I didn't want to get into any heavy discussions with him, I pretty much kept it to "you know what you need to do. It's up to you to do it." End of discussion. I'm not getting caught up in it again. He's been through enough programs to know where and how to get help. He asked if he could visit on a regular basis, I said as long as you're not under the influence of anything and can behave respectfully I would love to see you more often. I felt pretty good about the way it went, it was great to see him and I found it pretty easy to stay detached from the drama of his life. Let's hope I can keep it that way!