Where to start. I'm drowning here with no idea how to get back to being me. Me the happy person. Me the controlled person. I've got two kids from two different fathers. Is that what did it? I give everything I've got to both of them but it's not enough. I've encouraged both of them to do well and they have. The 34 year old is well off but so difficult she doesn't have a man. She wants a baby but can't put up with a partner. The last one lasted two years and she was getting married to him but she called off. In all this time I've to walk on egg shells. She can be so horrible to me it would make you wonder why I stick around. My mothers husband died and left her with money so my sister managed to have me put out the family by devious means. Yes I'm a sap and I'm hurt and I need my daughters support but it's not there. I can't get to see my mum as my sister has put her in a home with instructions that I've not to see her. How do I fight that one? My son keeps wondering what I've done to deserve all of this so stays away from it all. I don't know what I've done to deserve any of this. I've loved my mum forever. I am at the end of the phone when my daughter needs me and I love her to bits. I am devoted to my son but he has a girlfriend who doesn't like sharing so I know enough to know my place. My hubby is an angel and supports me totally. Why isn't my life perfect why does it have to be like this?