I posted earlier about getting my wake up call regarding my weight when I was in the store's dressing room and found out I went from a size 14 jeans to a size 18. I wasn't going to weigh myself for awhile so I wouldn't look at the scale and get discouraged. Well for some reason I decided to get the new scale out and weigh myself this morning anyway. I am appalled to say that I now weigh 186 pounds. I am officially the fattest I have ever been in my life. 3 years ago I weighed 120 pounds and went up to 171. I went on Weight Watchers and got down to 154. I went off my diet, got a horrible new boss who is giving me work I can't handle, and gained 32 pounds in 4 months due to binge eating. I feel utterly gross and disgusting. My boyfriend says I'm beautiful regardless of my weight. Of course he's going to say that just to make me feel better. Not to mention that he's 400 pounds so to him I must seem skinny. He is having gastric bypass surgery in the next couple months so he can lose approximately 200 pounds. Lucky him. He gets to do it the easy way and drop off massive amounts of weight in a short amount of time. I have to do it the hard way by dieting and exercising. But I am determined to do it. I just feel a little bit lost and discouraged. Could use some kind words right now.