And I'm talking MY anxiety (that has been under control for years). I posted a week or so ago that I was hired for a job and will start working again for the first time in over a year. Well, I start tomorrow and I am in near-panic mode. My anxiety has kicked in and nothing seems to be helping. What is causing it is the fact that my kids fight ALL the time because difficult child 1 is ....well ......difficult child 1. Add to that the fact that difficult child 2 is becoming more and more like difficult child 1. Neither understands the other and neither can tolerate the other's "imperfections". We are working hard on alternate points of view but they are far from getting it. I will be working short shifts in the afternoon/evening (2-8 or 3-8) a couple nights a week and 7 hour daytime shifts every other week-end. I am scared to death about what is going to happen when I am gone or repeated phone calls about the most ridiculous but fierce arguments I have ever seen. I am not allowed to have a cell phone there and they said my kids are welcome to call directly if they need something. They are too old for a babysitter (and I couldn't afford one anyway) and as most of you know, my mother is NOT an option. There is NO ONE to check up on them or for them to call/go to if there's a problem except me. Yes, I am terrified! Sorry if it seems like I'm rambling but my mind is spinning and my heart is pounding in my throat. Ideas are appreciated and support is more than welcome.