Im to the point that things are going too slow the several years to slow for a proper diagnose for my son. Son is now always saying he wants to kill us or cops or doctors if they get in the way to help him. He now added hes going to stab me in the neck and wants me dead he will kill me he promises. My daughters flat out refusal to get up and get ready for school and homework... needs a math tutor but refuses to listen when she is sitting there looks away etc... so they dont want to work with her. ..and shes home and I took away her electronics.( shes obsessed with the electronics ALL she does is that) Son is grounded as well from saying what he did. Im to the point I want to drive to the hospital and go to the E.R. or the Pysc hospital and beg them to admit them both. Can I do that? My daughter- they may get whats wrong because she wont act different there but my son will sweet talk the pants off them say he never acts that way or says those things Im the one who does it! He can really play it up to others and can take months to see his true self. Why do they hate me so much? Ive protected them against them being around their father when hes drunk and driving, around is druggy friends, put them in the best school and yes, willing to change to make them happy but when I go to register them at the new school they throw a tantrum screaming the wont go they want their current school etc. I love them, care for them, they are my whole life. I told them both Im taking them I dont know what else to do. Its everyday the struggles to get them up for school or even just to the store, they flat out refuse any chores, at least to clean after themselves, tantrum when the word "no" is told, they have no empathy it seems. Oh at rare times they say I love you back or are you ok but I think thats rehearsed. I may not work but others dont understand whats itsl ike to raises kids like mine with these mental isues, its beyond two jobs its beyond two kids because it feels like I have several. I love them and will do anything for them but I just need to know, can I just take them there? Wait for several more years of back and fourth doctors I cant. I wont. Add my family issues still too!!!!