I am empty. 19 yo daughter had emotional breakdown after drinking yesterday...and I think today as well. We heard her crying in her room. Lots of stuff going on that for her seems like the end of the world. Too long to go into here but it revolves around a no contact order by the court between her and her boyfriend because of a drunken incident where she got injured ...partly his fault partly hers (my belief is she was in a drunken rage and he pushed her out of his face...but I don't know). She is desperate to see him and she thought the no contact order would be over when sentencing finally happened (last week we went together to his sentencing hearing). He has already served jail time and is doing DV classes. He is remorseful. I am not sure what set her off but we heard her sobbing in her room... she said she fell and hurt her legs but when I saw them it looked like she might have cut herself. She used to self harm by cutting at age 15 and on. Then turned to pot and alcohol. Stopped antidepressants and quit school (at the same time met this guy...who also has been hospitalized twice for mental health). She never graduated. Today, she became belligerent w my husband and then me (I get the worst of it) screaming how no one will help her and she wants to die amd I'm a stupid bi***...ect. ect. It's not just the words she's saying it's the look in her eyes too. No one understands how terrorizing it is unless you have been in this type of situation and I know others on this forum do understand. I am still shaking. I called the police...she basically attacked me and grabbed the phone and threw it down breaking it into pieces. So I called on my cell phone then...police arrived about 20 min later bc we live out of town a few miles. They talked to her outside and asked us to stay inside. Well I guess they asked if she wanted to talk to someone and she said yes so they thankfully took her to behavioral health and not jail. Not sure what comes next. Relieved that this might be a chance for her to get the help she needs but scared too. Scared of diagnoses...labels...medications. Scared of her. I feel like I'm living in a bubble with nothing but yuck surrounding me. Feel guilty, heartbroken and depressed. I can't fix this. Only she can. With help. How do you help someone who is screaming vile words and radiating hatred in your face? Hopefully tge counselors there will be able to help. I shut down around her now because of this. Hubs isn't helpful either...hevtries though. Obviously she is projecting her self hatred onto me...us.. This hasn't happened for several months, but when it does it's like stepping straight into hell. She is where she belongs at the moment but it feels awful.