Steely
Active Member
Oh, you guys, please keep me in and Matt in your prayers. All of this moving around with him is taking it's toll, and I am so worried about him.
First the psychiatric hospital, where they lost the paperwork to 2 of his medications, and therefore he went cold turkey off of Paxil and Lamictal. Then to UT, where after 2 weeks of him being there they figured out that they can't keep him when he turns 18. Then to a wilderness program, group 1, for 7 days until he turns 18, and now group 2 for over 18. He had been doing pretty good with all of this change, a bit oppositional, and some periodic Matt issues ~ but now this latest move to group 2 he has totally crumbled. He has regressed into being the Matt of 7 years ago...........and it just makes me so sad for him. He is getting absolutely nothing out of the program at this point because he is cycling so rapidly, and escalating, and irrational, and not able to process things. I don't know what to do. And because it is a wilderness program the dr is a five hour drive. I feel like now I have made another poor decision for him, and now what ~ another program.
He has had too much change for a child like him in too short of a time. In the beginning he wanted to get this help, now he is just fighting it. I feel like everything he was working towards is crumbling, and now he is going to just start fighting everything.
I am so freaking sad right now. I feel like I have followed all of these people's advice on where he needs to be, and how, and where ~ and Matt has taken all of the advice and willingly done what was asked of him in order to get his life back on track ~ but now everything is backfiring ~ and he is done.
This is just a mess, a horrible, jerked up mess.
First the psychiatric hospital, where they lost the paperwork to 2 of his medications, and therefore he went cold turkey off of Paxil and Lamictal. Then to UT, where after 2 weeks of him being there they figured out that they can't keep him when he turns 18. Then to a wilderness program, group 1, for 7 days until he turns 18, and now group 2 for over 18. He had been doing pretty good with all of this change, a bit oppositional, and some periodic Matt issues ~ but now this latest move to group 2 he has totally crumbled. He has regressed into being the Matt of 7 years ago...........and it just makes me so sad for him. He is getting absolutely nothing out of the program at this point because he is cycling so rapidly, and escalating, and irrational, and not able to process things. I don't know what to do. And because it is a wilderness program the dr is a five hour drive. I feel like now I have made another poor decision for him, and now what ~ another program.
He has had too much change for a child like him in too short of a time. In the beginning he wanted to get this help, now he is just fighting it. I feel like everything he was working towards is crumbling, and now he is going to just start fighting everything.
I am so freaking sad right now. I feel like I have followed all of these people's advice on where he needs to be, and how, and where ~ and Matt has taken all of the advice and willingly done what was asked of him in order to get his life back on track ~ but now everything is backfiring ~ and he is done.
This is just a mess, a horrible, jerked up mess.