Those of you who've had your difficult children in a treatment facility for any length of time know this feeling. The feeling of loss - emptiness. The need to redefine yourself because someone else is parenting your child(ren) - for whatever reason. While the tweedles have been in varying treatment facilities I've worked hard to take on new, different challenges while maintaining my commitments to my children. I feel a little more "evened out", if you will. Not everything is so extreme on a day to day basis. I've learned to relax. I've experimented with new adventures, taken in a retreat with husband, participated in a piano recital & am in the process of signing up for a couple of golf leagues for this coming summer. I'm due to start school in the next month or so. Now that kt is transitioning home, I'm beginning to feel a new joy in being a parent. I feel like we're are at a new beginning. While I anticipate a lot of the same old same old out of kt - I also expect to see her use her new coping skills. kt is still not functioning at a very high level - yet I feel more hope that I did, even a month ago. Thanks for listening....your support has been more than a godsend over the last year.