So I had my first weight watchers meeting on Saturday. I finally was forced to face exactly how much weight I gained. I hadn't weighed myself for months cause I was too scared. But I finally did it. Holy c**p. I weigh 164.8 pounds! That is by far the most I have ever weighed in my entire life. So by medical standards I am techically obese. That means in the last year I gained forty pounds. That's ALOT of weight to lose. So at first I felt a little discouraged. The most I have ever been overweight in the past was by 25 pounds. Now I weigh even more. So I gotta force myself to do this. My jeans no longer fit and I went up to a size 14. One more size and I will officially be plus sized. Not gonna happen. So at the meeting I was given my total amount of daily points. Only twenty six. That's not much. A plain old small hamburger at Mcdonald's is five points. A subway sandwich is about ten. But all fruits and most veggies have zero points so I can eat as many as I want. That made me feel a little bit better. At least I'll never go hungry. Still twenty six points really isn't much considering the point values of meat, bread, dairy, etc. But I also get 49 free points a week to eat whatever I want. I can spend those extra points in one day or spread them out throughout the week. So I can have the occasional cookie or ice cream cone. And when I go to my boyfriend's favorite mexican restaurant every other Saturday, I can use up the majority of my free points there. I haven't looked up the value of mexican food yet, but I'm sure that even one meal would be way over my 26 daily points. So I can just save all my free points and splurge on Saturdays. So far it seems like a good plan. I think I can do this. I go again on Saturday to get weighed again. I am just praying that I at least dropped a pound. I need some kind of progress. So wish me luck. I am determined to do this!