I actually considered last night what a relief it would be to leave this life, this world. It was a very scary moment. No, I'm not going to do anything like that. No worries. But my God, I forgot how scary it is to feel that way. I then reached out to a woman I met on another board. I had given her my number about a year ago, at a time when she sounded so desperate, and last night I received a random email from her asking how I was. I emailed her back and she gave me her number. I called her and we talked for almost 2 hours. Perfect strangers in every way, but we connected. I just want to remind anyone who ever feels that way - reach out, even if it feels weird or awkward. After you say "Hello, it's me", the rest is cake. I'm feeling better today but it's going to be a long haul.