I've noticed that there are no recent posts here, but I'll give this a shot anyway. I've seen some great posts via google on here regarding those of similar troubles and the community seems friendlier than most. I recently ended sessions with my therapist. I felt better, but I asked her If she thought I was ready. I didn't think I was. I mean, I'm doing better but still having issues. I feel like she kinda blew me off. There wasn't much of a connection there anyway. I scared to seek out somebody new for treatment of my ptsd-so I'm trying to help myself. If that is even possible. I keep having nightmares of my childhood abuse, and I can't seem to grasp my emotions. I'm really irritable for no reason at all sometimes. If you have it, or know about ptsd, how do you/would you handle those thoughts? I'm thinking of trying EMDR treatments. I refuse to take Prozac because I can't be creative on it(which my job depends on) and it doesn't seem to help me with my obsessive thoughts. I was on it for a year and a half and then went off of it with the help of my doctor. Tonight, I stayed up thinking again. I truly feel like a prisoner of my mind. Every time I get to thinking I can't sleep. Sleep medicines really have no effect on me. What about meditation?