Sorry to hijack your thread 200Meters. I hope you and the Mrs. are fine, and I hope things have settled down a bit with youngest.
I can't help myself.
I bought 10 more gallons of water this morning. I'm now up to the recommended quantity to have on hand. It took several trips due to rationing. This is a lot of water!
Today, for the first time in my life I got to Costco before it opened. Perhaps a half hour before. Already there were about 500 people with carts lined up waiting. Serious, intense, seemingly anxious people. Now that I think about it, there were no children!
I don't think I'm anxious. I think I'm swept away in a kind of detachment.
When the doors opened, all of these people speed walked with their carts to the back of the store. It was civilized but quite intense. I did not see panic. Every cart had their limit of water *two cases. Toilet paper, too, was limited to two cases. It was going fast. I am not sure about paper towels because I only got one case.
On the way home I had to stop at the pharmacy in the upscale market near me. They were loaded with water, but there were very few people. Is this a Costco and dollar store phenomenon? If so, why?
I am thinking seriously about all of this. Is this internet-fueled? Is this driven by the inconsistency of government officials? Is it coming from the drip, drip, drip on the news? Is it from the unavailability of tests (and confusion about it), the mixed messages, in general, confusion about what might come (because there's inconsistency about prognosis)? Is this being politicized, and is this driving our anxiety? Is concern exacerbated by the steep global stock market losses? Is the fact that it's global, an echo chamber? Is it coming from not enough good information or too much?
Some of the serious people I listen to on the TV, such as physicians, public health officials, ex-homeland security officials, are saying straight out: in the next few weeks this will get way, way worse, and it will get worse where you live. They say most of us will have experienced nothing in our lives like what will come.
This is scary. I wish somebody was telling me what to do. Because I don't seem to listen to myself about staying home. Part of me believes I should stay home. But I can't seem to do it on my own.
I live in a small city 2 hours from a major metropolis. We have less than 100k people. We have a major university here. While in the main we are not a highly educated populace, we're not backwater, either. When I talk to (some) people who live in the highly sophisticated and highly educated metropolis near me, they tell me people are blasé.
Here, we are not blasé. People like M are calm and sanguine. But he's got 24 gallons of water just for himself! The recommended minimum for one person is 14 gallons.
I had vowed to stay at home beginning today, but I couldn't do it. Because I am in the age bracket that has been the most seriously afflicted, some experts are saying it's a very good idea for people like me to stay at home. What are they calling it? Social distancing, I think.
My rational mind thinks this makes sense. At this point, there is no real reason to go to stores or anyplace else. (What in the world could there be left to buy?) There is plenty to do around the house and yard. I can walk in my neighborhood. The problem is that I like to go out everyday at least once to a public place to feel connected, with the community at large. I did not realize how much I need it. If it comes to the point where I must stay home, I wonder if it will get easier.
I will pray that each and everyone of us (and our loved ones) stays safe and healthy.