In a few short months if all goes well, my difficult child will graduate high school. Overall I am immensely relieved that he will graduate as things as these high school years have been a complete nightmare. I work very hard every day to tell myself that it is going to be ok and to be thankful for this. Yet today I am overcome with sadness for what he is not doing. I don't allow myself to go to these thoughts very often but today it just snuck out of nowhere and I feel like I have been punched in the stomach. He once was a talented athlete and a good student with lots of friends. He had plans to go to college. Then depression and anxiety crept in (honestly can't say which came first)and he started using marijuana. Smoking marijuana regularly has taken his focus and his drive. He has no desire to walk across the stage and get his diploma, won't let me take senior pictures, doesn't do anything with any of his old friends or any friends for that matter. I am supposed to be writing his senior bio for the newspaper (tradition in my town) and can't come up with a single thing.