Daughter. More suicidal thoughts and verbalization. Plus, she has a plan-to swallow her whole bottle of Wellbutrin. We were on the way to the therapist (20 miles)and when we got there, she refused to go in therapist's office. So, we're in the lobby and I go in to talk to therapist, myself. Which worked out anyway. Daughter didn't want to talk about the suicide threats because of the fear of being hospitalized and therapist calling 911. Because of schedule conflicts Daughter hadn't seen therapist in almost two months. Though, I don't think there is a connection. Anyway, Daughter was falling apart. All her years of schooling she has been teased and excluded. Last year, things began to look up, but this year has been difficult again. She was sobbing in the car about why are people so cruel to her. Why does everyone think she's so ugly? Why doesn't any boy like her? She'll never be married, if she died nobody would care, etc. Then, for added stress, she is failing two of her classes. Both of them core academics. She's always had lots of trouble with peers. I'm sure she's not always innocent, but some of the things she has experienced, I would probably be falling apart too. She's so desperate to be accepted. It breaks my heart. So, after filling therapist on the latest events she suggested a new psychiatrist other than the one that works at the center. He's good for basic stuff (adhd, depression), but (and I agree) that daughter needs someone more specialized with medication combos and kids like her. She gave a some names, but recommended one particular psychiatrist and even though he's not on my Ins list, I went a head and made the appointment. I can get a partial reimbursement, I suppose. She sees him next weds. So, We'll see if it's a good fit. therapist also said that Daughter is really beyond her expertise also. Though things were relatively better than two years ago, there's a down turn and she thinks that Daughter needs more than one on one therapy. I also agree with that. She needs a therapist facilitated peer therapy group. This other psychiatrist might be able to point me in the right direction for this. After I was done with therapist, Daughter had to be persuaded to talk with her. Five minutes later, Daughter comes storming out declaring, "I'm so out of here!" in front of the whole lobby of people. therapist was trying to get Daughter to make a verbal contract that she wasn't going to try to kill herself. After both of us talking to her in the parking lot she agreed. Okay, I will finally get to the point. I'm now looking into Ind. Studies for her. At first, when I mentioned it, Daughter balked. Then, I could tell she was thinking about it. Her concern that she would get behind. "Daughter," I told her, "honey, you are already behind, you have failed three classes this year." I know that the at the core of this is anxiety to the extreme. Plus, she needs to be weaned from the Wellbutrin. I hope the new psychiatrist agrees. Back to the homeschooling. Boy, never say never. I never thought I would be considering this for her. I've already contacted the SDs VP in charge of IS by email. I'm told the SD has an excellent IS program. Oh yeah, Tuesday I husband and I are going to hear the results and recommendations of Son's neuropsychologist testing. Son has been a MAJOR PITA the last month. I hope I can get some direction in helping him. After that, next stop: The neurologist. I told husband that when our cellphone contract runs out this July, I'm going to get a Phone/PDA just to keep all the difficult children appointments straight.