Hi to everyone i hope everyone had a good day yesterday with minimal stress.
I sat this morning, awoke as usual to difficult child in my face jumping in my rm. prompting me to get up early "again", than she wouldn't go downstairs alone "again", or turn t.v. on. It's hard to explain how she acts, very immature at almost ten years old, so so needy. Than it's off to breakfast, i have to make "exactly" what she wants, usually an argument insues because i look at her the "wrong" way or something. Than it's t.v. time if i even deviate from her for a minute she looks at me with this needy upset face that i'm not watching spongebob with her, gets mad i go on computer for a few minutes. I can't even make a phone call to be honest when she's home.
I tried to yesterday i called a friend who was home alone for the day and she totally melted down into a full blown panic attack because my attention deviated for 5 minutes.
So, anyhow im rambling how do you handle this? Her neediness level enrages me every morning. It starts my day off badly, i wake up happy than she comes up on me immediately and i get freaked out. I am suffocated by her and feel like i can't get a minute alone except when i'm sleeping.
so, she's off to dad's today and quite honestly i can't wait. isn't that horrible?? i just need to shake her off me for a few hours so i can breath. I really try my hardest with her all the time, yet at times like yesterday it becomes way way too much. I actually lock myself in my rm just to get a breather. we have brought this up in therapy yet she 's given me no ideas as of yet how to handle it.
I feel bad feeling this way, i've always been very nurturing with kids, it just comes to me I love kids, everything about them and find parenting to be such a hard and rewarding job, and one that i do love so much. Yet when I get this feeling I feel like the "bad" mom for even feeling this way.
I sat this morning, awoke as usual to difficult child in my face jumping in my rm. prompting me to get up early "again", than she wouldn't go downstairs alone "again", or turn t.v. on. It's hard to explain how she acts, very immature at almost ten years old, so so needy. Than it's off to breakfast, i have to make "exactly" what she wants, usually an argument insues because i look at her the "wrong" way or something. Than it's t.v. time if i even deviate from her for a minute she looks at me with this needy upset face that i'm not watching spongebob with her, gets mad i go on computer for a few minutes. I can't even make a phone call to be honest when she's home.
I tried to yesterday i called a friend who was home alone for the day and she totally melted down into a full blown panic attack because my attention deviated for 5 minutes.
So, anyhow im rambling how do you handle this? Her neediness level enrages me every morning. It starts my day off badly, i wake up happy than she comes up on me immediately and i get freaked out. I am suffocated by her and feel like i can't get a minute alone except when i'm sleeping.
so, she's off to dad's today and quite honestly i can't wait. isn't that horrible?? i just need to shake her off me for a few hours so i can breath. I really try my hardest with her all the time, yet at times like yesterday it becomes way way too much. I actually lock myself in my rm just to get a breather. we have brought this up in therapy yet she 's given me no ideas as of yet how to handle it.
I feel bad feeling this way, i've always been very nurturing with kids, it just comes to me I love kids, everything about them and find parenting to be such a hard and rewarding job, and one that i do love so much. Yet when I get this feeling I feel like the "bad" mom for even feeling this way.
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