Nights like these make me really worry. Dinner was spent with me restraining difficult child with one hand and my legs to avoid her hurting herself around the house, my other hand fed easy child and fed myself. At almost 10 months old, easy child has been feeding herself the same foods we eat for a couple months now but after a day where difficult child has been at her absolute best we're all tired. I sit there watching easy child's calm face as she studies difficult child screaming, biting and scratching in my arms and I have to ask myself, does my sweet little easy child stand a chance at having a normal life? We learn from the behavior we see, especially at an early age and I worry that easy child will pick up on the wrong behavior no matter how much we correct difficult child. I know my life will never be the same again but I'm a parent, this is my job. I chose this life regardless of what the future holds. But our PCs are born into this, especially when they are younger. We want more children, I know at the end of the day I could handle more kids, whether they ended up being difficult children or PCs but is it fair to the PCs? So much of this year with husband gone (not likely to happen again thanks to a program the military has, at least not until difficult child is much older) easy child has been forced to watch as I restrain difficult child from hurting herself and others. I worry that easy child will somehow resent us and difficult child later on. As much as we want more children I guess I have to ask those of you who have been there, done that and got the t-shirt. Does it seem like you made the right choice to have more children?