I've been so worried about protecting easy child from the truth of what her father did that has caused our split, and worried about her worrying about me, that I thought I was giving her the impression that my wanting a divorce after 27 years of marriage wasn't that difficult for me and I thought she was just thinking this is what I want, so it shouldn't bother me that he has a girlfriend. I spoke to my counselor last night and then to Cay last night and I was wrong. I told her last night that yes, I do want this divorce, but that it is for valid reasons I would never even consider discussing with her, but that doesn't mean it's easy for me. She said, I know this is very difficult for you. She said she never thought for a minute that it isn't. I told her I just wanted to make sure she knew that because it wouldn't be normal for this to be easy for me. I also made sure to tell her that even though it's difficult, I will be o.k. because I will continue to see Susan and she's really helping me through it. She's such a great kid. I shouldn't even be calling her a kid. She's turning into such a well rounded mature young lady. I am so proud of her.