I love the child but not the man who is not in my life at all
It was a mean list, meant to be just that. He held his head up with confidence, in front of this church volunteer, as he explained each condition. He was proud to be mean. He knew it was mean. Not a doubt. I just listened, the truth sinking in that he was a different person. I did not cry. I did not feel like crying. Instead, I thought, "wow. I get it now." It was surreal, like I was outside of my body, listening to the frozen words of a stranger. And I was.
I left the church knowing that it was over. I didn't cry. I felt a sense of relief.
I threw the mean list in the trash
I am so sorry he had to live there for so long. It took much away from him.
It's shocking, to think about it. Like something priceless has been stolen, and I've just discovered the emptiness.
You can add me to that list, and I don't even know Gone Boy . I am sorry that he can be so cruel, and so smug about it. I do believe what Pasa said, and I do wonder what about *HIMSELF* he is saying in the things he says to you.It is noteworthy that even my ex thinks gone boy is being a jerk.
But, SWOT, like Cedar expresses, I feel there is still some sense of shame. Banish that. This is 500 hundred percent about goneboy. Not because he has some fearsome diagnosis, although he might.I feel ashamed, that he could feel about me this way.
M's wife put so many conditions on his behavior, should he return, that he never did return. They were rules kind of like goneboy's and designed to degrade him, humiliate him-, dis-empower him and advantage her. Stupid, stupid woman. Lucky me.If I wanted to see them I had to act like I didn't matter at all and put up with humiliating rules.
Don't kid yourself.Cop a, he would have loved you with your traveling and high level jobs and high education.
That is because he does not have self-respect. Everything is a veneer for him.He did not respect a child oriented, creative stay at home mom without a college degree and a father with an iffy job who did not spend much money