Hi, I have posted previously a couple months ago as a newcomer. Tried very hard to let go, having a hard time. Son, 33, has been sleeping on couch since we made him go to shelter after rehab. We should have paid again for oxford house, instead of saying no?? He said the streets and shelter were full of drugs. We let him back. He has started doing her ion again and stealing. He is going to a detox tomorrow, but wants to come back here after. I need to say no, and not feel the guilt of him being on the street within thus horrid city of herion abuse. It's a no win situation. Without good insurance, he will die. I can't live with the guilt of my past alcohol abuse. I read, we are not responsible, but, my actions are. I drink, I know you will snare at this, I was away and happy for four years. He followed me, and I always tried to help. I came back to people, places, and things to be with my husband and daughters. Nothing changed, but me. I am back to the horrbike me. I am now deeply depressed with no insurance. I had great insurance my whole life, but, am not eligible for Obama care. Insurance will be $989 month for me now at age 60. Please don't ridicule me, addiction is heridity. I just want to get back ton the strong me. I can't afford help.