I have NO idea how he thought we could buy a house. He has THREE Judgments against him, none that I knew about. Two have filtered to ME too...isn't that nice? All in all, it could add up to ten thousand dollars. So (here's the laugh) he thinks that if we buy a double wide, he can save up and pay off all three judgements in a year on his income of less than $40K a year. I feel like leaving him. I love him, but this is not a mess we can ever get out of. Nobody is going to lend us money to get out of this. We will never EVER be able to live anywhere we like. I want to run away from hub and never see him again. He is very annoyed with me for being upset and not having faith in his ability to clean up this credit mess . Renting is horrible. Every time we did, we got thrown out in a year because the owners wanted to sell. I don't want that again. Plus we have pets and we can't part with them and most renters want no pets. I am not doing well with this. I walk in a fog thinking about this all the time. It's a new idea for me: "You will never own anything decent." I have been a bad mother, a bad wife (gee, I wonder why) and can't write my books or concentrate on anything except this mess. I hope it gets better when/if we find some dive to live in. I usually feel like therapy will help, but I don't this time. I don't even want to talk about it. All I want to do is sleep and forget about it. WHY DID I MARRY HIM???? Ok, he's a good guy, but this cancels that out almost 100%. I feel no security and certainly our kids have none. Thanks for reading the selfish vent. Any ideas are welcome. And none are expected .