How do reach a child that is engulfed in abandonment and despair? She looks to her me, her mom for the answers, to guide her, to love her. Mother says you can reach for the stars, you can do it, only to come back with an empty hand, broken and defeated. My daughter, the reason I breathe is struggling so desperately with her emotions she has become reckless and self destructive. Nothing matters any more, to her that is. She has nothing left to lose, except her freedom on her current path. My difficult child is a wonderful child. On her good days, she is everything everyone else wants to be. Shes smart, funny and literally beautiful inside and out. The hard knocks of life have taken a toll on her in her tender 12 years. She has suffered more than any adult, yet young child should have to endure. I am her emotional support, her coach, her mentor and the only one who hasnt given up on her. It is my honor to have such a significant role but I am running out of reasons to give her hope. I myself am running out of reasons to have hope. I reached out to, 211, First Call for Help. I have been involved with YCM, DYFS, CMO and little guys in between. Doesnt anyone care anymore? Is it all about putting on a band aid until the clock strikes five then passing you off to someone else? Sorry we dont do that, sorry thats so n sos responsibility, sorry, I screwed up and now you have no health insurance. Sorry, I hope you dont see this as a reflection on our agency, but the lack of your case workers ability to provide your family with services that we have access to. Heres a $50.00 gift card to take you family to the movies. BULLCRAP! Well now, whats left? Her life is at stake here. Her hope for a future is diminishing. My faith in the agencies here to assist us no longer exists. Will anyone remember her when she leaves their care, will they say, I hope she makes it, is she just a file number with active case or will it be (god for bid she dies) and they say, I remember her, I should have done more? Or will they even care? The agencies have failed to help my family and in many instances made it worse. My little girl is in the hospital for the 3rd time in 3 months. Would it have happened anyway if the agencies did what they should have, what theyre supposed to do? Theres no guaranteed way to tell, however, my star, through it all has never given up, until now, which leads me to believe, it could have been prevented. I am victim of a failing system, a victim of my income, to much to qualify for anything not enough to pay for what she needs. Where do you go from here? When with things change? Who do you contact to make the change? Is there even hope?