Son had declared he is off all drugs and does not want to do them any more. We said good for you! He slept all day Sunday when he was here for a visit. He looked very forlorn when we asked him to leave. We know he does not like where he lives. Today I sent him a text and heard nothing until this afternoon. He said he screwed up and slept in and missed school all day. I picked him up and we talked and he said it was too hard to be away from home and that he needed us to help him. I told him we have been on the trail of disaster for several years now and being at home has never helped. He begged for one last shot (don't they all), he said he would agree to go to long term rehab if he could not stay off the drugs and get his life back on track. This includes getting to school every day and on time, obeying house rules and curfews and drug testing at any time. Well I am thinking this over. I did explain to him that if he did return home and failed to meet his commitments and then refuses to go to rehab, he would never be allowed in our home again for any reason. I explained not for a meal, a sleep over, a visit, nothing. Not until he is clean and sober for a good long time. I explained, again, that we love him and we always will love him, and he will always have our unconditional love. Expectations and boundaries are not unconditional. I told him to think about what he is proposing and be very clear about what this means. No more second chances this is the end of the road. I sense he is being sincere, I sense he realizes he has a problem, he is shifting more towards needing help and realizing that he can not do this on his own. I had a terrible night and a difficult day. My intuition was disrupting my every thought. He was present in my thoughts in a concerning way. I sense a shift and doctor ktnkniw if it is a true intuition or wishful thinking. Well here we go again wash, rinse, repeat. He is still so young and I do hope that this is a shift in the right direction. If it is not it is the end of a chapter and the beginning of a new one. He will need to pull a rabbit out of his hat and make a miraculous recovery, realize he can not get this monkey off his back and accept rehab or he is on his own.