I haven't posted or even been on this site in quite some time. I have been a coward and trying like hell to avoid any situation that will force me to think about the horror my daughter has gone through. Some of you might remember, my difficult child was raped about a year ago and when I found out about it a few months back, I basically fell apart. To those of you who supported me with your kind words, I am sorry I just disappeared, I just couldn't deal. I felt so horrible, so hopeless, like I would never be able to smile again. Well, I was wrong. Since I have last posted (few months ago) alot has happened. My daughter is doing so much better now, as am I. Of course because my mood depends on hers, if she is okay then I can be okay. Trying to change that by the way. Anyway, she is really making progress, she's working really hard on controlling her rage and learning how to implement her coping skills. She has come a long way, she still has a long way to go, but she is finally really trying and it shows!!! She is talking about college and wanting to better her life. She is healthy and looks fantastic. The best news is that she will be coming home for an overnight visit this weekend!!!!! YAY It has been about a year since she has been home. We can't wait. So, we are getting through this and I am finally able to see the sun again. After I found out about the rape I was so devestated that I thought I would just die from the pain, I thought I would never feel good again. It has been rough but getting much better. Thank you to all who have supported me in the past and who I have learned so much from. I think of you often and would like to be part of this wonderful on-line community once again. Wishing you all the best and looking forward to reconnecting with old friends and making new ones.