mom23gsfg
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am i crazy or what?for thinking this........sometimes when i go through the things that i do i cant help but feel sorry for my ex....not the man he is today but the child he once was.
yes this man beat me on many occations, once hitting me so hard in the side of my head that i now have no hearing in that ear.....
and he is no father to my children what so ever...strange i hate this man but at the same time .....
but i knew this man when he was a boy and i cant help but to think of all the things i have went through with my children and to stop and think about how many similarities there are and feel great sorrow for him as a child.
he had to watch his father beat his mother....he had very big anger issues.....his attitudes were like cutting a light switch on and off...his parents let him drink ...he was in juvi for various reasons starting at age 12 and later prison at the age of 16 (for stealing a vehicle and when the police got after him he sped and flipped the car back onto the police car so, they got him for attempt of capital murder on a police officer) ...and jail for various reasons later on
part of my mind screams ...why in the world didnt anyone offer this child help?all the signs where there...
i sometimes think that if someone had had the decency to take him out of that crazy violent home and gotten him some counseling and an evaluation maybe he wouldve turned out to be a better human being...a better parent for his own children...
sometimes i think he was just another statistic that got lost in the system.......other times i wonder if he would have turned out the same way even with help...because
and another part of me prays and hopes my children will not turn out like this even after all that i have done to try and prevent it....because sometimes it seems like nothing works
yes this man beat me on many occations, once hitting me so hard in the side of my head that i now have no hearing in that ear.....
and he is no father to my children what so ever...strange i hate this man but at the same time .....
but i knew this man when he was a boy and i cant help but to think of all the things i have went through with my children and to stop and think about how many similarities there are and feel great sorrow for him as a child.
he had to watch his father beat his mother....he had very big anger issues.....his attitudes were like cutting a light switch on and off...his parents let him drink ...he was in juvi for various reasons starting at age 12 and later prison at the age of 16 (for stealing a vehicle and when the police got after him he sped and flipped the car back onto the police car so, they got him for attempt of capital murder on a police officer) ...and jail for various reasons later on
part of my mind screams ...why in the world didnt anyone offer this child help?all the signs where there...
i sometimes think that if someone had had the decency to take him out of that crazy violent home and gotten him some counseling and an evaluation maybe he wouldve turned out to be a better human being...a better parent for his own children...
sometimes i think he was just another statistic that got lost in the system.......other times i wonder if he would have turned out the same way even with help...because
and another part of me prays and hopes my children will not turn out like this even after all that i have done to try and prevent it....because sometimes it seems like nothing works