Hi folks, went to the doctor on monday with a little fever and here I am with leukemia. what a total shock. Would love and all board juju. I am doing really well right now, I actually feel good, so hard to reconcile with being seriously sick. I try not to think about my poor husband raising difficult children by himself. Mostly I stay in pretty good spirits. They are still doing a lot of tests which will help customize treatments but I have started on first round of chemo with good results so far. Our oldest seems to have taken it pretty well and we have been emphasizing that is very treatable but I will be away from home in a hospital about three hours away for several months --though I probably get to go home for a couple weeks which will be good so I can get organizd. I'm parlaying the cleaning the house angle. only this crowd will appreciate this. the doctor was telling me about the side effects of steriod I'm on and mentioned that one of rare ones is a psychotic break. But don't worry he says, there are anti-psychotics out there. I rattled off the three or four I know and looked kind of surprised. Explained about all the drug research that goes into raising two difficult children! since my kids think i have one or two psychotic breaks a day anyway probably, I figure they won't even know the difference. Welcome your advice on how to deal with difficult children and all this and anything else. Thanks for being part of my circle of well wishers.