So last night it came to a head for me personally. Right around 10:00 pm, I started to feel extremely dizzy and had a very hard time breathing. My heart beating out of my chest. Feeling like I'm really about to die. You know panic at its finest. I really had trouble breathing. Being able not to breathe properly and losing your breath has to be one of the most terrifying things on earth. So , even though I knew it could be a panic attack, I didn't want to take the chance. I've had only 4 panic attacks in my life, it's not something I've always had. I do have several health conditions so you never know. So I called the ambulance to come get me. While I was waiting I felt like my lungs were going to collapse. Turned out all my breathing test came out really good in fact and it was just a panic attack. Jesus those panic attacks make everything seem so real. So basically, all the drama over the last several months took it's toll last night. I know I need professional help, unfortunately can't afford the good kind right now.