So. I was visiting with my dad yesterday, and he said something that set me back on my heels. He said "After all you've been through, you CAN"T be OK". Really? I have been thinking about this for hours - didn't sleep too well last night. I'll admit to a little PTSD. Any maybe that I'm a little depressed. I have a fair amount of 'generalized anxiety'. Ya know - butterflies in the stomach, shortness of breath, etc. I might be isolating a little bit more than normal. A sense of 'blah'. Is is possible to go through the stress of living with a mentally ill husband - complete with 2 suicide attempts, 3 job losses, a current financial crisis, hospitalizations, ECT, empty nest, etc, etc, etc without some sort of personal crisis? I don't know. Sometimes I wonder if I'm in denial. I have gone to a secular therapist twice since January. The first session, she recommended divorce. The second session she recommended that I really need to "embrace the reality that husband will complete a suicide" given the history. I never went back. Is it because I was offended at her 'counsel' or because I just don't want to face reality? Who knows? I don't talk to my girlfriend, because seriously, how could she begin to understand my situation? My question is this? For those of you who have had prolonged & acute exposure to mental illness, how has it affected you personally? Did you reach a breaking point? Is MI in some regards contagious? I appreciate any thought/comments from the only people I know who really get it.