husband and I have disagreed regarding difficult child forever. difficult child continues to have me in tears. Pushing my buttons, disrespect, yelling, defying anything I say. Lying. Friends, neighbors, teachers, counselors..I have stuck up for him so many times only to be burned when i find out the real truth. husband believes him. Does nothing about his behavior. Treats him like he is TWO and not Twelve. Does anything, takes him anywhere, buys him anything even though we cannot even make our bills. I have worked second shift and commuted 100 miles a day for a couple years. I was working 6 or 7 days straight because I had to. I handle ALL issues in the house, bills, doctors, school, car repair..ALL issues. When I did get a day off and I actually got to SEE my family, all we did was fight. I recently changed jobs, working midnight to noon three days a week. So, I am home four days, and I am able to stay up and see difficult child. (dealing with issues like today, I did not sleep and am back here at work). Anyway about a month ago, husband and I got into a huge argument. My older son was home also. It was over difficult child's treatment of me, his behavior, his actions. We were in a screaming match and both said horrible things. I found out that husband has not told me things regarding school from LAST year. Then said one of the counselors who I am close to from elementary school called him and said certain things about me. So, I asked her. She said he must be mistaken because she has not spoke to him in two years. So...husband is lying to me also. husband thinks I make things up, so now I print the emails I get from teachers and show him. He made an appointment with school regarding what happened prior to school with me and difficult child. he wasn't even there. Anyway, in this screaming match I said I wanted a divorce, don't need him, don't want him. i said I was leaving and never coming back. I said the family would be better off if I were not there. difficult child went to school the next day and went to see the social worker. She called the Crisis intervention center and the police came to my house. They were going to forcefully take me to the hospital unless I went to the Crisis center. . . Now to get to the issue today. difficult child made honor roll last quarter. Did fantastic. The last four weeks (3rd qtr) he has been out of class more than in class. issues with friends. Spending most of his time playing online games. not doing ..refusing to do school work. Disrespectful. Often we are both in tears by the time I get him to school on the days I am home. Today I lost it. i went to school and told him he will face the consequences of his actions. No computer, No game systems, No doing anything accept his school work. i told him the issues at school and with his friends are because of HIM. he mouthed off to me and I "jacked him up against the wall" at school in front of all the kids. he then said he was running away, I told him go right a head. He asked me to quit saying so many bad things about him, he is not bad. But, I lost it and I just kept going. Finally after we settled down he told me that he thought if he got good grades we would be proud of him..which I assured him we were. he then said after that fight with husband and i said I wanted a divorce he figured if he was bad we wouldn't fight. I told him that only makes it worse. So..I totally went off and said all these awful things about him..to him. I don't feel like I can recover from this. I just am feeling they would all be better off without me.