Peace Please
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((Steely))) Does your whole being feel like a shattered safety window -- completely covered in cracks but just barely hanging in the frame? That is how I felt during the darkest grief in my life. medications didn't help, talking didn't help, I was terrified that I was going to be like that forever.
Can you afford the time/money to focus completely on you for 3 days? Just check into a nice hotel, spend the day at a spa -- massage, facial, etc, get lots of sleep in a big comfy bed, order room services, maybe walk around a museum or a park...don't plan on thinking about anything; give yourself permission to just be. The problems and the grief will still be there after the 3 days but you will have a little more energy, a little more focus. If you are having trouble sleeping, I'd ask the doctor for 3 sleeping pills to make sure you rest.
I completely agree with JJJ here. The shattered glass feeling is exactly how I have felt two times in my life. I have severe Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) that was diagnosed when I was 19. I'm 37 now, and I barely remember those periods of time anymore, except feeling like I was never going to feel better. My Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) is primarily obsessions related to illness in myself. What has worked the best for me has been resting for a few days, until I start to feel a little more energetic. Then, I start adding back in things I love to do, like crossword puzzles or reading. I find that these are the best distractions because you have to think about them, which helps distract me from whatever it is that's bothering me. After a couple of days of "redirecting" my mind, I start adding back in more physical things, as much as I can handle for each day. When I take the time to do these things for myself, I feel better pretty quickly. I do think that you should visit your doctor and talk about your medication. It took about three years after I was diagnosed for us to find the right combo of medications for me. Don't give up. Things will get better. Sending you hugs!!