Where do I begin? 16 year old son, autism, adhd, type 1 diabetes, Hashimoto's, alopecia and severe sexual trauma at 12 years old. Recently PTSD responses to trauma as well as self-harm. I will call him J. When J was first diagnosed, I decided that no doctor, teacher or therapist was going to limit the possibilities for my son. We beat the odds, and he emerged from severely autistic to extremely high function, smart, funny, communicative boy, who desired relationships and was able to love and be loved. In 2012 he had a best friend. I was over-the-top excited for him. Isn't that what we worked for all these years? Nothing better than sharing life with a friend. But this friend was not a friend. He was a predator, and used the friendship to coerce my son into sexual scenarios, and eventually raped my son. This experience left tentacles of anger and mistrust and confusion. J is now addicted to pornography and deviant sexual fixations. Pornography is his drug of choice. We will not allow it, and when it is blocked we face weeks of intense aggravation, aggression and assault. On top of this, he is plagued with medical issues that also make him angry. We have tried for over a year to find an Residential Treatment Center (RTC) of J, a place where he could work out his anger and pain. A place where he could begin the road to healing. We love our son, but can no longer handle him. He is wounded and has deep needs. After 3 failed Residential Treatment Center (RTC) placements (he never went, because the facilities denied placement due to his Type 1 Diabetes) he is now placed in the most amazing facility!! To my shock, they actually admitted him!! It is trauma-focused; filled with kindness; people who are trained and ready to help. Incredible therapies that I do believe will help him make peace with all his issues. This is a chance for him to grow and change and to have a happy life. I am praying that he decides to work and get better. Such a struggle. Mothering is not for whimps. Please keep him in your prayers.