Methuselah
New Member
I am a monster.
After difficult child 1 deliberately screwed with her blood sugars which deliberately caused me clean up her elephant koi, I lost it. I am so tired of difficult child 1 intentionally causing harm and not feeling badly about it. I'm so tired of the stress she causes. I'm tired of her blaming everyone and everything. I'm tired of her maligning my character with lies to make herself seem a pitiful soul. Im tired of her pathological defiance and covert aggression. I'm tired of her not feeling badly about any of it. Never, ever feeling badly for how she treats others. Never.
I can't believe I said the following to her and meant it:
I told her when she gets her first tattoo to be kind to all those around her and make it's a picture of an a****** and to place it smack dab in the middle of her forehead for all to see. I told her to make sure it is the image and not the word, so those who don't speak English will still be forewarned of what is to come. It is the kindest thing she could do.
Yes, I said that. I meant it, too. Yes, I am a monster. Mainly, because I don't feel awful about it. It is the truth. I should feel awful, but I don't. Not at all, and my lack of regret is eating me up. Absolutely eating me up. :-(
After difficult child 1 deliberately screwed with her blood sugars which deliberately caused me clean up her elephant koi, I lost it. I am so tired of difficult child 1 intentionally causing harm and not feeling badly about it. I'm so tired of the stress she causes. I'm tired of her blaming everyone and everything. I'm tired of her maligning my character with lies to make herself seem a pitiful soul. Im tired of her pathological defiance and covert aggression. I'm tired of her not feeling badly about any of it. Never, ever feeling badly for how she treats others. Never.
I can't believe I said the following to her and meant it:
I told her when she gets her first tattoo to be kind to all those around her and make it's a picture of an a****** and to place it smack dab in the middle of her forehead for all to see. I told her to make sure it is the image and not the word, so those who don't speak English will still be forewarned of what is to come. It is the kindest thing she could do.
Yes, I said that. I meant it, too. Yes, I am a monster. Mainly, because I don't feel awful about it. It is the truth. I should feel awful, but I don't. Not at all, and my lack of regret is eating me up. Absolutely eating me up. :-(