by the way boyfriend and I are in the talking stages. he has expressed that he is very sad about all that happened with us as well. he has apologized and shown a lot of remorse, he says he loves me. I am not sure if he is the one for me any more. his mother and father invited us two to easter dinner.
I have been discovering that boyfriend suffers from depression off and on. he has a history of it and his withdrawl for a week, his insomnia, and disorganized thoughts, and skewed judgement of late has brought that to light. I am not sure I want to deal with that either. for now, we are seeing each other daily and talking. I am so grateful he continues to counsel and work with ant daily. that is a blessing.
I am taking it slow, focusing on my walking program and diet to get ready for summer. my house is getting the once over too. I dig into it when I get stressed. it helps to be busy.