I've spent WAY too much time THINKING. So...follow me on my thought process here and then tell me I'm NUTZ and to shut my brain up and do the work I'm supposed to do and trust the Dr's to figure my son out, OK? So...since M was admitted, his pulse was fast and his blood pressure was high...started in the ER (he was raging, so makes sense) and then the first couple of days on and off in inpatient (they said maybe it was the fact that they were using the automatic machine and not doing it manually...sometimes it reads high or low...whatever...I only found out because I happened to be there on a visit when they checked his vitals...it's not something they were telling me about). So...I was thinking...what would make his pulse race? What would make his blood pressure high? Maybe his anxiety is up? Maybe his fight or flight reflex is in high gear? Maybe it's that Strattera at it's peak surging norepinephrine through his body. Then I'm thinking more about WHAT is the mysterious life trigger that sent M on his downward spiral? What caused him to cycle into such crisis? It started slowly increasing around the Summer and then really picked up this school year. Well, when I was helping the nurse in the ER on Thursday try to help M use the portable urinal to pee in the bed (cuz he was still in restraints), I noticed M had little, thin, blonde hairs in his pubic area. The more and more I thought about it, it dawned on me that this Summer is when he started having body odor and I kept trying to get him to use antiperspirant. And then last night I checked his arm pits and found more little, thin, blonde hairs in his underarms. Could M be going through puberty? Or at the least have an abnormal level of hormones? Is this the mysterious life trigger? Then we have the urinary issue. It's *almost* resolved. He can pee without turning the water on, it doesn't hurt, and it starts easily, but he still needs to sit, he can't stand to pee. Could there be something going on with this kids Adrenal Glands???? They sit right on top of the kidneys, they produce norepinephrine, as well as sex hormones. Ok...I've OFFICIALLY LOST MY MIND! It's ok...you can say it. This is where my husband would chime in and say I have a "flood of thoughts." So, I'm going to slink away now and take a shower. I'm sure you've all had enough of me today.