Hello.... Im totally new here and I and needing help with dealing with mt soon to be 7 year old son. My heart is broken for him and I am just wanting my little boy back. A little back story. He has always been a very high strung little boy but his behaivors started to get out of hand around the age of 3-4. When he was 4 almost five i finally gave in and took him to the dr for help. He was diagnosis ADHD and ODD. I didnt want to send him off to school the way he was. Most of his behaivors are anger and impulsive control. Dr percribed Ritalin, along with suggested we take him for therapy... We tried the therapy which was a giant joke. The therapist basically told me that he needed to be medicated and to bring him back in a week. When we started the ritalin i brought him back where the therapist said he seemed much better and to contact him again if we needed him in the future. He was no help at all. My son was doing well on 15mg of ritalin 3x a day, but he wasnt gaining any weight and his dr was very concerned. At the time he was almost six and only weighed 35 pounds. So we tried aderall which was awful... It made his outburst and his rages MUCH worse. so after a month of trial we took him off and went back to ritalin for the rest of the school year. then he was put on intuniv working up to 2mg. we later added 5 mg of ritalin three times a day. After the new year for some reason insurance didnt want to cover his intuniv anylonger. Dr called and reported that he recieved a letter saying he needed to but put on something cheaper. I wasnt happy about this because my little guy was doing VERY well but agreed to at lest give it a try. He was then perscribed Guanficine along with his ritalin. Over the last two months my son has become increasing worse. He is angry ALL the time and is never happy. He has since started telling me how he wishes I was dead along with his older siblings, punshing himself VERY hard in the face, throwing things at everyone, and raging over the smallest of things... I cant take him anywhere nor ask anyone to watch him for any period of time. Last Thurseday while Raging over a toy that his younger brother had played with while he was at school he threw the toy at his brother hitting him on the head so i sent him to his room to settle himself down, he then threw a hand full of legos at me, went screaming to his room, about 45 minutes into his fit he started yelling down to me that he wishes he was dead and he should jump over the railing now so that he would die. (His bedroom is on the second floor of our house). It was at that moment that i decided that the Guanficine was done... That night i gave him his intuniv. I couldnt contact our dr until today because he was out of the office. While back on Intuniv he has been somewhat better but still not my little boy. At a birthday party Sunday he decided to throw a fit over his brothers new toy and almost hit my brother in law new truck with a training wheel off of his bike. When I took him upstairs he then decided to throw his lamp at me where the light bulb broke and cut up my husband pretty good (I removed EVEYTHING out of his room last thurseday when he was threatening to kill himself. The only things left behind was his and his brothers bed, his dresser and his lamp) . My house has been a nut house ever since he was taken off him Intuniv and now even it no longer seems to be working. He has been waking up in the morning raging, coming home from school screaming, it just doesnt stop! It is like he is always LOOKING for somthing to have a fit over and they last forever. Sometimes more than a few hours! When I spoke to his dr today he suggested Risperidone. He advised me to search for info about it and if I felt like giving it a try i should call and sechedule an appointment to bring him in. Does anyone have any experiences with this? Does it work well with anger issues and impulsive behaivor? Side effects? Dr said there is alot of blood work involved and monitering more so that what he has been on. This worries me that it could be harmful to him... but then again doing nothing is harmful to everyone involved. I am just trying to do the right thing for my little guy... I will be finding a new theripist for him as well. Maybe a new one will actually do something this time... He is thinking that maybe this may be more of a mood disorder... Bi polar etc... All I know is I am wore out, tired of the looks, even from my own family because they seem to "think" that I am doing nothing about it. And I do know that I want my baby back. I'm tired of feeling like im failing him!