So today is the day. difficult child is 2 hours from me right now. I recently told her she was no longer welcome in my home. I will bring her things to her in a few hours & say goodbye and come back home. My emotions are all over the place. I'm angry that we are in this situation at all. Angry at her poor decisions. Angry that all the work and effort and energy spent on "helping" her over the years wasn't enough. Angry at the lies and lack of respect and...I guess in a certain sense not returning my love. Maybe I feel a little rejected. And then I'm sad...like deep to the core sad. Like I am mourning a loss. Like I am saying goodbye to her forever. Like I'm throwing my baby into the universe and she will be all alone. That's what it feels like anyway. No one really gets it here. Hubby is empathetic, sympathetic & supportive, but new-ish to my life & has no clue what we really went through all these years. I'm new to this area and haven't made many friends yet. This isn't exactly easy to explain to others. It's been very comforting reading others posts knowing that I am not "alone". It's going to be a very hard day for me. I guess I just needed to get this out. Thanks for listening.