I have been away for awhile but I'm back. A lot has happened. My difficult grown son got out of jail, got a job and I, again, let him live in my house. Things went pretty well for awhile but that's always been the history, for awhile. He is a master manipulator. I also decided to allow his girlfriend to stay here while they saved enough money to get their own place. I am not going into all the drama that resulted from that decision. She has turned out to be a dangerous violent alcoholic that attacked me during the Christmas holidays because of course I was in the middle of a scary domestic dispute between them. Tonight he is outside in the cold because I will not allow him back in my house. He is with her and they are trying to apologize for what happened. I have a big bruise on my chest and she also threatened me with a knife. I swear if it was a gun, I might not be here to tell this. Oh, I got a restraining order at the Courthouse today......went to my first Coda meeting last night. Another year of that kind of hell? I have always given into him but with the help of God and my good friends, I am mapping out a new life for myself. Standing up for me! They are lurking outside hoping I will give in but I am standing my ground. It is freezing out there and I wish things were different but there not. RN0441, I know you understand where I'm at and I honestly feel better taking back my life. This is the first step and it feels pretty good.