Well, all I can say is she is a definite roller coaster. We've had a really good 5-6 week period with no hitting, verbal nasties, etc. But it is beginning to unravel again. difficult child has had 4 or 5 meltdowns in the last 10 days with full on hitting, screaming, kicking and general *****iness. She does seem to follow a pattern of pretty good behavior and then rolls into the nasties again. Ok, so last night in Walgreens, picking up a prescription she decides she needs pencils and lead for school. OK. I should know better and not have taken her in the store, but hindsight is everything. The badgering starts with I need the package of $7 mechanical pencils, 2 new spirals, pencil grips, erasers and more. I said no...and the badgering increases and increases and increases. Well, I am embarassed to say I blew in Walgreens. NO, I scream and I stomp off just like my difficult child to the cashier. We argue in front of the cashier(Why am I doing this???, I know better) and head to the car. She stands in front of the drivers side and says Mom I'm sorry. I ask her to move and I tell her I need a timeout and not to talk to me. So she whacks me with her sack of pencils and gets angrier. I push her to the side so I can get in and of course she pushes right back. and of course stands in front of my door again. She kicks me and I in all my childishness kick back. She backs off and I can get in the car at least. Ok so if any employee from Walgreens witnessed this exchange in the parking lot, I am afraid of child protective services coming to get my difficult child and charging me with abuse. Silence the whole way home which makes her feel confused, but I just can't talk to her. We get home, she does her spelling with Dad and I go in to tuck her into bed. We both admit wrongdoing, talk and makeup. But, the physical aggression has reared its head again and this is not how I want her to deal with her anger. 4 or 5 times in the last 10 days again. Triggers this week..I said no to guacomole, riding in the car to the airport (had to drag her out of the car with best friend from out of town watching), just the word no to something perhaps very trivial to me will cause a vapor lock. Does anyone keep a journal of meltdowns? I just started doing so. Thanks for listening. Today will be better.