I don't know how much more of this I can take. I'm not doing the things I need to do like taking care of my clients' properties. I'm not doing anything but the very basic requirements at home. Taking a shower is a great effort. Going out and doing something is this side of impossible. As I was unpacking, I found a whole bunch of old medications. Rather than going through them to toss those that had expired, I looked at them and wondered if they were still potent to take all at once. Obviously, I didn't take them but I didn't throw them out, either. I can't afford to see a therapist or get some anti-depressants and, even if I could, I probably wouldn't. It's too much effort to do what I need to do to get the help. Heck, I can't even make the effort to pay my bills on time and I can't afford the late fees. I really feel like the life is being drained right out of me. I'm usually pretty good about being able to work through my depression but this one is so strong. There's just too much stress in my life right now. Much of it is obviously financial, something I'm truly not used to. I'm the one who always had the funds when someone needed help. I actually quit working for three years to stay home with my daughter and it was no problem -- the funds were there for me to do so. I hate my life. I want the world to stop and let me off. I want my daughter to start being successful enough so I can step off this merry-go-round. I really have had enough. Okay, I'm sorry for whining about poor me and I'll stop now. Please don't offer a bunch of suggestions about what I can do to get help because I just don't have it in me to bother and I'm very good at making excuses why I can't do something even when I know the reality is the only thing stopping me is me. I have no idea why I'm posting this or even what I want or need from you guys. Hopefully, you'll figure it out for me.