hi I felt the need to write a post saying that I am sorry. I was told by a few of our members today that as of late my posts are hard to read, that I am alll over the board, no pun intended. That i'm reactive to no end, etc. clearly it's been a challenging year, yes we all have them. Yes, we all react differently to that. Its' been one mini crisis after another here, as I've been handling one after another after another..... Anyway one person even wrote she couldn't respond to my posts anymore because it was too chaotic or i forget her exact words. I, years ago went through a similar huge upheavel, had just moved in with husband at the time. Transitioning from single life to life with five children and some personal stuff was going on. I was ranting, raving, posting away, typing fast. You name it lol. Luckily Loth reigned me in very sweetly and kindly telling me basically breath, it's all going to be ok. So, I find myself there again. I had to say though, alot of times when i do post I am rushed for time. it's normally inbetween a tutor, difficult child needing something an outting, etc. her being here is quite different than her being in school. So i will make a point of taking my time when I'm writing. i try to use paragraphs I used to NOT! that was bad........ can you imagine all my ranting with no paragraphs and line after line?? anyway thanks to those of you who kindly tried to help in some way. Sorry to those of you who felt oh sheesh here she goes again i just cant' bare to read it. yet that is everyones' choice to answer what we can, give support when we can, or simply just sit and read the posts. Timing was a bit off though, i was just processing doctor appointment. today than saw my "people" saying oh sweetie your kinda loosing it. Not offended to those who said it, i appreciate the sentiment. I'm breathing by the way and yes to confirm i am borderline add!!! I had once said i'm a difficult child...... clearly you guys weren't listening. Afterall does the apple ever truly fall far?? thanks to all of you also, the support, reading my chaos, helping with the easy child issue was HUGE, those of you who helped tremendously through difficult child's two hospitalizations this year you know who you are! So, i'll still be posting away. Unless my therapist gives me daily sessions I doubt lol i'll be here!