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bran155
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Hello again. I am sorry, I am so monopolizing the board!!!! I can't help it, I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!
I spoke to my daughter yesterday. She was really quite nice to me. In a very good mood. She misses us. Of course she does, she's in Jail!!! She did tell me that while she was "on the run" she often cried to her new boyfriend that she missed me terribly. She said she wanted to come home so badly but knew that I would have to turn her in. So she didn't. She seems to be doing pretty good in there. She is in the psychiatric ward, I guess because she was freaking out when she arrived and had to be put in something like a straight jacket to keep from hurting herself. I am not sure how long she will be in that ward, she is trying to get transferred to the "minor block". In the meantime, she got into a fight with another psychiatric patient. She didn't get into trouble though. Apparently she was trying to help this other girl and she attacked my daughter. I am not sure what she was trying to help her with. The CO told my daughter she did the right think in defending herself. He actually gave her "props" for the way she "kicked this other girls a**". The other girl did go into lock up. So when I was speaking to my daughter she was still on her little "high" from the fight. She was very pleased with herself. Truthfully, so was I!!! I would never let her know that, of course. But I am glad that she is able to handle herself in there. If she didn't turn around and kick a** then she would be easy prey. She is a tough girl, she can handle this. I, on the other hand would be such a target as I would spend my days crying in my cell!!! I am glad she didn't get into trouble though. I was under the impression that while in Jail it doesn't really matter who starts the fight, I thought both girls would get into trouble. That wouldn't really be fair. Then again, it's Jail, they don't have to be fair.
Our conversation was really good. She kept repeating "I love you so much mommy". She doesn't want to live with me anymore though. Which is totally fine with me!!!! I know that if she does come out and go live with this new boyfriend she won't take her medications or go to therapy. That is the one reason I would like her to live here, however even when she lives here she doesn't comply with that anyway. According to her this new boyfriend is really a nice guy, he told her to come home when she was out there on the streets. She says he pushed her and pushed her to at least call me. She says she didn't because she was afraid she was going to go back to jail. She kept on asking me to put her brother on the phone. I avoided that, kept changing the subject because I know my son does not want to speak to her, he would only end up hurting her feelings. Later on I was thinking maybe that would have been a good thing, for her to see that her behaviors turn everyone, including her 7 yo brother, off. I don't know. Here I go again trying to protect my daughter's heart. I did tell her that her brother and cousin are angry with her. She doesn't seem to understand, she thinks because she doesn't actually abuse them that they have no right to be mad at her. Truthfully, I think she does understand why they are angry, she just doesn't want to admit that. She doesn't want to own the fact that she is hurting them because she really does love them a lot.
She has court on Tuesday, I am not sure if I am going to go yet. She swears that she will be getting out. She thinks her "peoples" will show up with bail money. I am curious to see if anyone shows up for her. She asked me to call some of her new friends to see if they will come. She also asked me to call the other guy she got arrested with and see if he is okay. Is she nuts? I told her there was no way I was calling anyone for her. I told her about the guy that was calling from the jail and threatening me. She swore up and down that I must have in some way provoked him!!! How? You don't get to say anything to the person on the other end unless you accept the collect call. After a few minutes she understood that. She was mad that I reported him. She said that would come back on her. "Then stop giving out MY phone number". She gives these people that are in jail my number as if I am actually going to accept the charges and pay for them to talk to my daughter!!!! NOT!!!!
So, what do you guys think? Should I go to court this time? If I do go, my sw will be coming with me. If I don't go, the sw will go alone. I kind of want to go, but I kind of don't. I am not sure. I don't want to send her the wrong message. I want her to know that I am so overdone when it comes to her drama. I did miss the last court date. I did not visit her yet. I did not send her anything yet, not even a letter. I want to go because the lawyer never called me back and my daughter does not give me enough information, so I am not really sure what is going on with the case. I don't know - what do you think?
Sorry, this is a bit scattered. I just woke up and am only on my first cup of coffee so forgive me if this is hard to follow!!!
Thanks for listening AGAIN!!!!
Shawna
I spoke to my daughter yesterday. She was really quite nice to me. In a very good mood. She misses us. Of course she does, she's in Jail!!! She did tell me that while she was "on the run" she often cried to her new boyfriend that she missed me terribly. She said she wanted to come home so badly but knew that I would have to turn her in. So she didn't. She seems to be doing pretty good in there. She is in the psychiatric ward, I guess because she was freaking out when she arrived and had to be put in something like a straight jacket to keep from hurting herself. I am not sure how long she will be in that ward, she is trying to get transferred to the "minor block". In the meantime, she got into a fight with another psychiatric patient. She didn't get into trouble though. Apparently she was trying to help this other girl and she attacked my daughter. I am not sure what she was trying to help her with. The CO told my daughter she did the right think in defending herself. He actually gave her "props" for the way she "kicked this other girls a**". The other girl did go into lock up. So when I was speaking to my daughter she was still on her little "high" from the fight. She was very pleased with herself. Truthfully, so was I!!! I would never let her know that, of course. But I am glad that she is able to handle herself in there. If she didn't turn around and kick a** then she would be easy prey. She is a tough girl, she can handle this. I, on the other hand would be such a target as I would spend my days crying in my cell!!! I am glad she didn't get into trouble though. I was under the impression that while in Jail it doesn't really matter who starts the fight, I thought both girls would get into trouble. That wouldn't really be fair. Then again, it's Jail, they don't have to be fair.
Our conversation was really good. She kept repeating "I love you so much mommy". She doesn't want to live with me anymore though. Which is totally fine with me!!!! I know that if she does come out and go live with this new boyfriend she won't take her medications or go to therapy. That is the one reason I would like her to live here, however even when she lives here she doesn't comply with that anyway. According to her this new boyfriend is really a nice guy, he told her to come home when she was out there on the streets. She says he pushed her and pushed her to at least call me. She says she didn't because she was afraid she was going to go back to jail. She kept on asking me to put her brother on the phone. I avoided that, kept changing the subject because I know my son does not want to speak to her, he would only end up hurting her feelings. Later on I was thinking maybe that would have been a good thing, for her to see that her behaviors turn everyone, including her 7 yo brother, off. I don't know. Here I go again trying to protect my daughter's heart. I did tell her that her brother and cousin are angry with her. She doesn't seem to understand, she thinks because she doesn't actually abuse them that they have no right to be mad at her. Truthfully, I think she does understand why they are angry, she just doesn't want to admit that. She doesn't want to own the fact that she is hurting them because she really does love them a lot.
She has court on Tuesday, I am not sure if I am going to go yet. She swears that she will be getting out. She thinks her "peoples" will show up with bail money. I am curious to see if anyone shows up for her. She asked me to call some of her new friends to see if they will come. She also asked me to call the other guy she got arrested with and see if he is okay. Is she nuts? I told her there was no way I was calling anyone for her. I told her about the guy that was calling from the jail and threatening me. She swore up and down that I must have in some way provoked him!!! How? You don't get to say anything to the person on the other end unless you accept the collect call. After a few minutes she understood that. She was mad that I reported him. She said that would come back on her. "Then stop giving out MY phone number". She gives these people that are in jail my number as if I am actually going to accept the charges and pay for them to talk to my daughter!!!! NOT!!!!
So, what do you guys think? Should I go to court this time? If I do go, my sw will be coming with me. If I don't go, the sw will go alone. I kind of want to go, but I kind of don't. I am not sure. I don't want to send her the wrong message. I want her to know that I am so overdone when it comes to her drama. I did miss the last court date. I did not visit her yet. I did not send her anything yet, not even a letter. I want to go because the lawyer never called me back and my daughter does not give me enough information, so I am not really sure what is going on with the case. I don't know - what do you think?
Sorry, this is a bit scattered. I just woke up and am only on my first cup of coffee so forgive me if this is hard to follow!!!
Thanks for listening AGAIN!!!!
Shawna