OMG. I have been so irritable. Like I feel I am going to blow at any given moment. Went to psychiatrist last Friday. He increased my Strattera, even though I told him I didn't think it helped. Worked until noon on Saturday and did not go to bed. Stayed up with difficult child and went to church festival that he worked at. Then he spent the night at a friends. Came home about 3 on Sunday (didn't go to bed until after 5 am!!) I took difficult child and neighbor two kids to the outdoor Sunday night. Took the same to the waterpark 160 miles away on Monday. backup one day..I went to get my prescription on Sunday and the co-pay had gone up outrageously. I questioned it and they called the insurance co. and it was correct. I refused it. With my headache medications. and difficult child's medications, I just cannot afford this too. So, I quit, cold turkey. Will there be issues doing that? We didn't get home from waterpark until midnight, and I had had enough of all the kids by then. Tuesday had to wake up difficult child to take him to neurologist. Didn't want to get up, that was an argument. Paperwork was wrong, that irked me(because they said I gave them wrong info...)Nurse sat and chit chatted with receptionist until I started complaining about how long we were waiting. difficult child tried to "help" me at home and caused me SOOOO much MORE work than if he had not helped. he's TWELVE. Tried to make a good dinner, only it wasn't done..put it back in the oven and when I went to take it out realized I forgot to turn the oven back on. (I am really irritable) Tried to wash the care and clean it out, with difficult child's help. AAGGGHHH! Should of done it myself. He put stuff on there and I ended up taking it to the car wash because it left a white residue. Then took difficult child to the ltitle league championship best of 3. We were routing for a certain team who lost the previous night. husband said he would meet us there for the second game (double header) if needed. I was sore from the previous day, tired, sat on a metal bench for 3 hours. Called husband and asked where he was. He decided not to go. I just lost it. I have spent 4 days with difficult child. I was sore, I was tired and I have been waiting for him to get there. He showed up with whe it was almost over, I left without speaking to him. He did nothing the past 4 days when I have been busy. So much work to do around here, and he did nothing. Everything I did yesterday just went wrong. Even things like wheel's falling off shop vac, extension cord stuck and couldn't get it out. Just feel like I am going to blow. Still feel that way this morning! Could it be the Strattera? Just the hormone issues I have? Too much time with difficult child? Back to work tonight for 4 nights, then off for 10 days. Going up to our cottage for "family week". The only one I wanted to see now informed us he cannot make the trip. (from California) We are going to spend time in Green Bay at sisters and doing other things. Only spending 2 days at the actual cottage. I am worried that I will blow with all the remarks I know I am going to be hearing. Any natural calming drugs you know of?? I feel as if I should be the one on Lamictal. My moods are all over the place, and I know I blow up at small issues too. Could everything be because of ME? And difficult child would be fine if it weren't for me??? I am calling to day to inquire about HRT. Hopefully that will help me. I just had such a horrible couple days. difficult child didn't, but I felt as if I was on the edge of losing it. Thanks for letting me get it out.