I don't know how many of you are spiritual - but this morning I got a call from my girlfriend. Her mother has been at home and she quit her job to take care of her properly, getting a hospice nurse too. She had kindey failure yesterday and got a morphine shot - they took her home and sung gospel songs in the house, over her bed while she was fading. She passed about an hour later in peace with a smile - I'm sure the heavenly choir was beautiful. And you know I have rescue rats. I lost my first little girl about 2 weeks ago. Well this morning - the little girl didnt come for morning "lovies"my favorite little girl passed away. Rats are clean, and very smart contrary to popular belief. And I thought to myself .....I wonder if my girlfriends Mom got to enter heaven with my little rat in hand? Then I was wrapping her in her favorite blanket - and I see a hawk standing in the yard. We never get hawks - with the cat we hardly get birds anymore. And this hawk, huge head, grey belly - dark markings - looked right at me in the window, spread its wings twice, and then took off. I think he headed for heaven with my little Jwi. When our son died, there were 2 services - on Christian and one Native. As the men beat the drums and the women danced in ceremonial attire - I looked up and saw the hawk circling above. The chief said it was a good sign - the heavenly hawk took his spirit to the next world. I think such a sweet little rat deserved the same ride. I'll sure miss them both. Just looking at things a little different today - for the animals sake. Hugs No need to apologize or anything like that - I know they are in a better place because they won't be old, or hurt, or be sick. I just miss them that's all. Rats catch your tears in their little hands and give them back to you as smiles.