Why do I go for a few days not feeling down or thinking about my daughter, then those guilty thoughts come crashing into my head? I know Im doing the right thing but I get so confused!! I just cant believe that she can actually believe that the things she says to me are true....I mean she really doesnt think she has treated me badly! I havent talked to her for a month now...It just gets me so worked up thinking she really doesnt realize just how many times I have been there for her. And I really hurt seeing the nasty environment my sweet grandson has to live in! I took him to buy him new sandals on saturday, he was riding on the cart and all of a sudden he says mama I really love being with you!!! Ripped my heart out! Sometimes I think I should rescue him from it all, then I think....do I really have the strength or the money to raise another child!!