OK, so a week or so ago she calls me CRYING--after not calling me for almost a month. Telling me she was going to have to go to jail because she backed into a parked car while leaving a party--and LEFT. She wanted me to "help her" by paying her $130 bail and co-signing for the balance of her bond. I told her no, I couldn't help her. And I couldn't. I did NOT have the money and I haven't had a job for 2-3 years (stipulation of the co-signing). I told her I loved her, told her to call me when she got out...and hung up. The next day I looked her up in our local "jail search" and saw her mug shot--she SMIRKED in her photo (wtf?). She was "in jail" for 3 hours. Didn't hear from her. I assume her grandmother got her out (major denial). Last night, at 11PM she called my cell phone. First of all, I have told her 1 million times that my cell gets AWFUL service in the house. I get service only when my cell lays on my bedside table, that's it. She didn't call the house phone. SHe told me she loves me and that she misses me and that she feels so bad for not calling me more. She tells me she is at a party with, like, 15 other people and she just "thought" of me and wanted to call. Then she asked if I would be home Monday. She wants to come out and see me. Ummm...I live an hour from where she lives. She gripes all the time about how far away I live, how much gas it takes to get here, how far away from her work and friends I live... and yet she wants to come SEE ME!? She knows I have ZERO money for her. ZERO. Half of me doesn't think I'll even HEAR from her tomorrow--much less SEE her... but wow! What is she up to now? All I want for Christmas is for my 20 year old to stop doing drugs, drinking and hanging with losers. I want her back, her normal, kind, loving, smart self. And I want my 9 year old to get the help that he needs to make him be the best boy he can be. I know that it is all alot to ask... but I ask it. I pray for it. I dream of it. I want it.