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natalieoh
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Hi dearest friends,
This site has been my lifeline since 2002. I don't know how to thank you all for the love, support, and friendship here. .
Since I last posted a few days ago, difficult child was evicted from his apartment. He totally demolished everything. The dresser that we let him use, his two guitars, the refrigerator, pulled the thermostat out of the wall, tore legs off of chairs and on and on and on.
Since he called me such horrid names, he took them back. Yeah he apologized again. When he realized he now had no money, no apartment and no girlfriend. He did lose it. Even became suicidal. Since we have been close to his birthmom who lives in another state, he decided he wanted to go there. He had visited her years ago and has stayed in some contact off and on through the years.
His going there just feels soooo very right to me. He has two brothers who will look out for him. His birthmom is also a warrior mom. She is a no nonsense person who is already telling him the way it's going to be. I have cried for two days straight realizing that he simply can't live in our city anymore. There are awful teens who want him dead and people so angry at him that they'd harm him if they could.
My husband and I have been disowned and wished dead, sworn at, not one door nor wall in our home hasn't had a hole in it. He's stolen from us, threw away my wedding ring and anniversary ring and on and on. Yet I have loved him as if he was a easy child. I now realize love is truly blind.
Oh we saw this through the years. After oodles of therapists and two stays in residential and two in an IOP nothing, but nothing has helped. No medications soften this and it doesn't help that he is marijuana addicted either.
Funny how over the years I never, ever thought about what I got out of our relationship, because he showed me so rarely that he cared. Love is blind. and I love him now as much as ever.
So we will heal, rest, and pamper the heck out of ourselves right now. Yes difficult child and I will be in contact and so will his birthmom and I. But now, I am living safely in my home and community without fear of harm, police calls and threats to our home, yet a part of me is very empty.
Hopefully, the healing can begin, and oh, Star, I have an appointment with a new female therapist!
Love,
natalie
This site has been my lifeline since 2002. I don't know how to thank you all for the love, support, and friendship here. .
Since I last posted a few days ago, difficult child was evicted from his apartment. He totally demolished everything. The dresser that we let him use, his two guitars, the refrigerator, pulled the thermostat out of the wall, tore legs off of chairs and on and on and on.
Since he called me such horrid names, he took them back. Yeah he apologized again. When he realized he now had no money, no apartment and no girlfriend. He did lose it. Even became suicidal. Since we have been close to his birthmom who lives in another state, he decided he wanted to go there. He had visited her years ago and has stayed in some contact off and on through the years.
His going there just feels soooo very right to me. He has two brothers who will look out for him. His birthmom is also a warrior mom. She is a no nonsense person who is already telling him the way it's going to be. I have cried for two days straight realizing that he simply can't live in our city anymore. There are awful teens who want him dead and people so angry at him that they'd harm him if they could.
My husband and I have been disowned and wished dead, sworn at, not one door nor wall in our home hasn't had a hole in it. He's stolen from us, threw away my wedding ring and anniversary ring and on and on. Yet I have loved him as if he was a easy child. I now realize love is truly blind.
Oh we saw this through the years. After oodles of therapists and two stays in residential and two in an IOP nothing, but nothing has helped. No medications soften this and it doesn't help that he is marijuana addicted either.
Funny how over the years I never, ever thought about what I got out of our relationship, because he showed me so rarely that he cared. Love is blind. and I love him now as much as ever.
So we will heal, rest, and pamper the heck out of ourselves right now. Yes difficult child and I will be in contact and so will his birthmom and I. But now, I am living safely in my home and community without fear of harm, police calls and threats to our home, yet a part of me is very empty.
Hopefully, the healing can begin, and oh, Star, I have an appointment with a new female therapist!
Love,
natalie