Disclaimer.........*I want to be able to keep in touch with you guys - and I so need and want to talk about my sister - but I just need for anyone reading this post not to use my sister's name (those of you who know it) - and for us to not post any links to her case at this time.* Thanks. Well, as you can see I have changed my screen name to Steely, formerly known as WW. I had to do this because I posted links about my sister who has been missing for over 2 weeks, which were then traced back to my screen name, which then exposed everything about me. This then was used against me in a police strong arming incident, to keep me quiet about the proceedings of the investigation. Suffice to say - it was like something out of a movie, I still do not have my sister back, my parents and I are not speaking, (despite my dad having cancer), and I do not understand one thing about how or what has happened in the last 2 weeks. Not one. So, there are no clues, no leads, and no evidence, and the det is about to wrap the case up. My sister will be filed as a missing person. Missing. Period. Someone please tell me what to do when you think you cannot do life anymore. When the very last piece of security and love you had is taken from you. Please tell me. I can go to the Dr and get more medications, but I cannot see what that will do. Make me happy? Make reality less tangible? I am already on Lexapro. I can go to my counselor, but what will that do? Make me grieve for this loss that it is so enormous that I cannot imagine how deep or long it is? And once I am able to conceptualize it - then how long will it take to find peace and acceptance in that vortex of pain? Years? I don't have years anymore. I so need someone to tell me how to do this. I have already been through so much with 2 marriages, and a difficult child from hades - I really do not know how I can cope without my sister. I keep feeling like she will call any moment - but yet she won't. OMG, I love/loved her more than anyone, ever, save difficult child. My pain is just too much to bear - and therefore I have not even touched on it. I am simply existing in a zombie like state. I know I should have hope that she is out there somewhere - but I just know her. I just know she would not have disappeared. I just know. I have told the police that from the beginning. I just need to know how to do this. I feel like this is it. This is the last straw in my semi-normal existence. I don't want to fall off the cliff of life, but I am afraid.