I am often left wondering where in hades did my boy go? Strikes me at the oddest moments...I was watching GMA and Diane Sawyer was interviewing Jaycee Duggard (kindnapping victim for countless years...) I remember watching similar stories and teaching my boys (difficult child especially, oldest kids seem to get the best of life lesson talks) that no matter where, no matter what, I would never stop looking for him, would never stop loving him, would never stop wanting him home (in the event he was kidnapped) Never imagined he would kidnap himself. And yes, I am achey, he is totally incommunicado, seems to have been assimilated into his girlfriend's life and family and has not looked back. Occasionally. I check his phone records and his girlfriend's fb page (I am restricted on his page) . Recently, there have been lots of phone calls between him and his girlfriend's dad. Her fb page states she is going on spring break to FL this week 15-25, and I wonder if he is going with her. That might explain why he wanted his golf clubs, plus break is over his birthday and I doubt she will let him out of her sight that long. And also on her page - a "family" picture from her mother's birthday at the end of Feb- complete with difficult child raising a glass in a toast. FWIW, in July he left town on my birthday - to go away for the week with her family. BITTER? Table for one. So I ache, I look like hell, I am overcome with work stress and family stress and my kid has a new family who is likely taking him on another vacation. His bottom is looking pretty good. I know I don't want him back in his difficult child state, but I miss my boy. And I am so struck that he apparently doesn't miss me. On a positive note, he did remember PC15s birthday last week and sent a gift and card - and a text to easy child. Thank goodness.