Last month, difficult child 1 stayed with some friends of ours for a week at a lake cabin. I missed him but for the most part I worried about him taking his medications on time and getting enough sleep. It was peaceful (respite) but not 100% worry free. Today, difficult child 2 left to spend a week with these same friends at their house. I miss him already. I mean really miss him. For some reason I feel like crying but I never felt anything close to this when difficult child 1 was gone. Why does this feel so different? Why don't I feel the same things as I did when difficult child 1 was gone? This is so strange to me and I actually feel a little guilty for not feeling the same way about difficult child 1 being gone. I'm so confused.