Lost in sadness
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I wanted to thank those that responded to my last post. I'm sorry I never replied then. I needed to get away for a bit and that is what we did. My husband, my daughter and I took ourselves away for a break and some peace, sun and different environment. It gave me time to reflect. It allowed me the space to say "enough is enough". In my head I have done everything I can to help my son. My heart still feels I have abandoned him. Our last contact was to continue to blame me for his situation. It has now been three weeks. I think of him all the time, I follow him on Instagram and continue to cringe at his posts wishing he would be different. I blocked his number and he blocked me on Facebook and if I am honest it suits me. I feel I can live and get on with my life when we have no contact. It does not stop the worry or me praying that one day he 'wakes up', gets bored of this life and asks me for proper help. If he does, I will give it. Until then, i am 'done'.
Am I wrong? Am I wrong to leave him to it? Can I ever help someone that refuses to see how bad his behavior is? Should I be doing something? I have offered all help so i can only assume that he is not ready to change. I am still battling with whether his problems are just drug related or a serious mental health problem. He struggles in all relationships and appears to continue to fall out with people but never believe it is anything he has done. I am thinking I cannot help someone like that. I feel a bad mum for not bothering to reach out anymore. He wrote a "miss you" comment on a photo on Instagram. I ignored it. He missed me because he had split up with his girlfriend and probably needed something. I didnt want to go back to the same pattern of behavior. I worry now he doesn't have a girlfriend coz now he has nothing. I pray he doesn't end his life. Thank you all for listening/reading my woes. I am sorry for all of us. So painful. xxx
Am I wrong? Am I wrong to leave him to it? Can I ever help someone that refuses to see how bad his behavior is? Should I be doing something? I have offered all help so i can only assume that he is not ready to change. I am still battling with whether his problems are just drug related or a serious mental health problem. He struggles in all relationships and appears to continue to fall out with people but never believe it is anything he has done. I am thinking I cannot help someone like that. I feel a bad mum for not bothering to reach out anymore. He wrote a "miss you" comment on a photo on Instagram. I ignored it. He missed me because he had split up with his girlfriend and probably needed something. I didnt want to go back to the same pattern of behavior. I worry now he doesn't have a girlfriend coz now he has nothing. I pray he doesn't end his life. Thank you all for listening/reading my woes. I am sorry for all of us. So painful. xxx