phantomphixerswife
jazzys nana
I HAVE GOT TO BELIEVE THAT I AM NOT GOING NUTS. I KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT ANYWAY. I AM A 50 YEAR OLD WOMAN THAT FEELS THAT I AM ABOUT TO BE PUSHED OUT THE FRONT DOOR OF MY HOME BY MY 6 YEAR OLD GRAND-DAUGHTER. MY HUSBAND AND I TOOK ON THE TASK WILLINGLY OF RAISING THIS BEAUTIFUL LITTLE GIRL WHEN SHE WAS ONLY 6 WEEKS OLD. WHEN SHE WAS 2 SHE HIT THOSE "TERRIBLE 2s" HARD AND HEAVY. WE ARE STILL WAITING FOR HER TO "GROW OUT OF IT". WE HAVE BEEN TRYING TO HANDLE THINGS ON OUR OWN AND FINALLY CONVINCED HER MOTHER THAT SOMETHING WAS WRONG. SINCE WE DO NOT HAVE LEGAL CUSTODY HER MOTHER HAS BEEN HAVING TO TAKE HER TO doctors THAT ONLY DEAL WITH MEDICADE. WHAT A DISASTER THAT HAS BEEN. WE HAVE FINALLY CONVINCED HER MOTHER TO GIVE US CUSTODY SO THAT WE CAN GET HER ON OUR INSURANCE AND GET HER INTO SOME DOCTOR THAT WILL DO MORE THAN SEE US ONCE A MONTH FOR 15 MINUTES. THATS LONG ENOUGH TO CHECK HER WEIGHT AND HEIGHT AND WRITE OUT A SCRIPT FOR ONE
MORE MONTHS WORTH OF medications.
WE WERE TOLD SHE HAS ADHD. BUT WE SEE SOMETHING MORE. WE HAVE BEEN READING AND READING AND CAME ACROSS THE ODD. THIS DESCRIBES THIS LITTLE GIRL TO A T. I THOUGHT SHE WAS JUST MAD AT THE WORLD AND HATED ME BECAUSE SHE CANT BE WITH HER MOM. SHE TELLS ME ON A REGULAR BASIS THAT SHE HATES BE BECAUSE I MAKE HER DO HOMEWORK,EAT HER MEALS,PICK UP HER TOYS,TAKE A BATH, ALL THE STUFF IM SUPPOSED TO DO.
LAST NIGHT SHE HAD ME SITTING ON THE FLOOR CRYING AND ASKING MYSELF WHY IM PUTTING MYSELF THROUGH THIS. I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO AND SOMEONE TO CONVINCE ME THAT WE CAN GET OUR LITTLE GIRL THROUGH THIS AND HELP HER BECOME A PRODUCTIVE MEMBER OF SOCIETY. I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO REACH HER. I FEEL LIKE A REALLY BAD PARENT.
MORE MONTHS WORTH OF medications.
WE WERE TOLD SHE HAS ADHD. BUT WE SEE SOMETHING MORE. WE HAVE BEEN READING AND READING AND CAME ACROSS THE ODD. THIS DESCRIBES THIS LITTLE GIRL TO A T. I THOUGHT SHE WAS JUST MAD AT THE WORLD AND HATED ME BECAUSE SHE CANT BE WITH HER MOM. SHE TELLS ME ON A REGULAR BASIS THAT SHE HATES BE BECAUSE I MAKE HER DO HOMEWORK,EAT HER MEALS,PICK UP HER TOYS,TAKE A BATH, ALL THE STUFF IM SUPPOSED TO DO.
LAST NIGHT SHE HAD ME SITTING ON THE FLOOR CRYING AND ASKING MYSELF WHY IM PUTTING MYSELF THROUGH THIS. I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO AND SOMEONE TO CONVINCE ME THAT WE CAN GET OUR LITTLE GIRL THROUGH THIS AND HELP HER BECOME A PRODUCTIVE MEMBER OF SOCIETY. I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO REACH HER. I FEEL LIKE A REALLY BAD PARENT.